Breakthrough from the fool's paradise.

A child in there still searches for a paradise that's based on unrealistic standards, consisting of all possible elements that exactly matches up with our version of the happiness quotient, a kind of a customised hamper of good experiences only. In between all of this, we forget to emphasize on the fact that we as individuals are whole and handing over ourselves to someone is like letting them hold the key to our senses and manipulate us even without our knowing of it. Being with someone, combined efforts to investing our time and day together should be seen as a complimentary act to create some cheerful memories by doing things in their company that you otherwise wouldn't have indulged yourself in, by being open to taking up unusual conversations, picking places to explore, engaging in unconventional activities together to experience newness and scraping out layers of our submerged selves that would have left unexplored if not we were up to meeting new people. The real havoc happens to us when we associate our likes and dislikes with others, define our moods in accordance with theirs, mould ourselves to fit in to an extent that we diminsh our identity. 

My happiness starts with me and I wasn't able to find the road to happiness till I was searching for people to rely on. Dependence can do worse than you think. It can constantly make you feel dissatisfied and incompetent, leave you in complete shreds without giving you clues to fix the situation. By happiness, it ain't about being in a state of elixir at all times but being able to place oneself in a liberating state that keeps the mind hassle-free, free from someone else's mood swings and independent from expectations, letting yourself know that no matter how imperfect you are, it still makes you enough for yourself. The day you start feeding this substantial message in your subconscious mind, I assure you, you will stop looking for shoulders to rely on. You will find yourself happy to open the doors for people and a bit lesser in guilt and denial to let them choose the exit gate too, if they wish to.

When drowning in the puddles of bewildering existential crisis, for the longest time it gets hardly noticeable for oneself even though people around you see a much clearer picture of what's happening. When seen from a distance, realisations happen, things start to make sense. The damage is observed with clarity. The cause of it all gets a labelled recognition and the dreadful reality mistaken with fantasy presents a crystal clear image, you know how wrongly you have been treating yourself throughout.

Self-love which is conceptualized around pampering yourself, taking yourself out for shopping and dinner is a mini edition of it but what's majorly important is self-awareness. It's a journey from seeing yourself in the mirror with hatred to feeling 'I am enough'.It is then you will engulf yourself with the realisation that winning can be addictive not just in video games but in life too.